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There’s a power much bigger than hate
Still lost in the urge to annihilate
But I know I will overcome this
You dragged me through the darkest days
By the skin of my teeth you restored my fate
And I raised myself out of the ashes
Now I’m alive in new light
And I was carrying the weight of the universe
The typical brittle perfectionist
Confused by my every decision
One day I was being the hero
The next I was playing the coward
Burnt out by my overreaction
There were times when I thought that my heart would stop
Running for a bleak horizon
Locked in my obsessions
And now I am the raindrop
I am the tulip
I have learned compassion
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And the magic light
That appears to shine
Is not the light of
Benevolent design
No maker made me
Everything I believed has died so silently
Now I live on a wire chasing shadows
My mind is tired
But my heart’s too stubborn to let go
No maker made me
I will never be hijacked by the fairytale
We can always just fuck away our sorrows
Mouth to mouth we thrive
We’ve got everything we need to survive
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Now we’re floating like two feathers
In the sunlight and the dust of California
And you no longer have to carry me
We are exactly where I wanted us to be
No more hesitation
Nothing will ever divide us again
No more energy wasted
On the temper of our time
Just the truth and the sublime
So thank you
You need to know
That you dragged me out
Of a mile deep hollow
And I love you
You brought me home
‘cause you dragged me out
Of a mile deep hollow
We threw our past in the Atlantic
And those eleven days remain in our tool kit
We took our chances with the desert life
Even though we got lost along the way in our own minds
We took all the blows
Searching for purity
We put an end to all
The beating up ourselves
And the walking on eggshells
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He takes your face and positions it to take your mouth
You bite, you bite to excite yourself
He wants the colour of you to wear and feel alive
And you bite, and I’m awake and I’m the slave tonight
You lie, you lie to spare my life
You needed it, he tasted you inside out
Say it
Your joy, your joy is my low
So you wash yourself to start again
Your joy, your joy is my low
When you crack the whip I crawl again
You shift the play, push the curve to sit between your thighs
It’s a sign, it’s time to exercise the lines
You want the double cut through to wet, invade and slide
So you slide, and I’m awake and I’m the slave tonight
You lie, you lie to spare my life
You needed it, he tasted you inside out
Say it
Your joy, your joy is my low
So you wash yourself to start again
Your joy, your joy is my low
When you crack the whip I crawl again
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Kinder und Sterne küssen und verlieren sich
Greifen leise meine Hand und führen mich
Die Traumgötter brachten mich in eine Landschaft
Schmetterlinge flatterten durch meine Seele
In der Mitternacht
The paradox of our minds
Too much to believe, too much to deny
You fool me again to quiet my pride
But I’m a human, I come with knives
I never promised you an open heart or charity
I never wanted to abuse your imagination
I come with knives
I come with knives
And agony
To love you
The monotony
And the rising tide
Is under my skin, is crawling inside
Adrenalin to rewire my mind
I’m only human, I come with knives
I never promised you an open heart or charity
I never wanted to abuse your imagination
I come with knives
I come with knives
And agony
I come with knives
I come with knives
To love you
With agony
Kinder und Sterne küssen und verlieren sich
Greifen leise meine Hand und führen mich
Die Traumgötter brachten mich in eine Landschaft
Schmetterlinge flatterten durch meine Seele
In der Mitternacht
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You look good in leather
In bars
Breaking things, breaking hearts
You look good in pleasure
In hotels
Loneliness is the key to break that spell
I am terrified, I think too much
I get emotional when I drink too much
I buy every cry, because I don’t trust
I am terrified
In your blood, the fetish
The prize
Of a million teasing moments blind
Will release you from the circus
The railway
But the gravity between us will keep us safe
I am terrified, I think too much
I get emotional when I drink too much
I buy every cry, because I don’t trust
I am terrified
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4AM
Raging hard
And I feel like I’m a child again
Neon streets
I’m so high
I can’t quiet my bionic mind
North star, I need you to guide me home
North star, I want you to guide me home
I need help
I’ve seen bad things
and I cannot make them disappear
I want flesh
To bring me happiness
‘cause I feel nothing, I feel nothing
North star, I need you to guide me home
North star, I want you to guide me home
It’s the blue hour again
In the world there is a horror of plagues
Do you still love me?
Stand tall, shoulders back, feeling brave
Who am I? Who am I?
There’s dirt under my feet, a breeze across my cheeks
Scorpions in the sand
I can feel them, I can feel them
Reprogram, repeat
I am real, I am good
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My Northern heart weighs like a stone
And the burning sadness has become my home
The tortured world wants me to hate
But there’s a world inside
Where my love can bury my rage
Every second I disappear
I feel my senses dying
In the mountain stillness I hear
Hollywood coyotes crying
Sorrow, you are my light
Everything my heart desires
Show me your beautiful anger
Sorrow, keeping me sane
You turn my nights into days
I love your beautiful anger
When I am tempted to give up
And the winter’s drowning me with memories and loss
I leave my hungry mind outside
‘cause there’s a beauty inside
And sorrow is fueling my fire
Every second I disappear
I feel my senses dying
In the mountain stillness I hear
Hollywood coyotes crying
Sorrow, you are my light
Everything my heart desires
Show me your beautiful anger
Sorrow, keeping me sane
You turn my nights into days
I love your beautiful anger
Every time that I feel
My empire beneath my feet
Crumbling – anger
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Lay back for me
You are just exactly what I need
In this cold town
Lay back for me
The three of us in circus and in liberty
It’s been too long
So throw your guilt religion
To the liars and the weak
This is the politics and war of ecstasy
And all the nonsense of that vision
That is failing every test
Is the comedy and death of your senses
The alternative to real world
Is just time for me and a fantasy
Be blind to myself to idolise
The alternative to real world
Is just time for me and a fantasy
I’m blind to myself to idolise
You work so deep
Astonished and in rapture
I can barely speak
These are hard times
Hormones in key
A slow whispered wet confession
From our body heat
There’s no return
The alternative to real world
Is just time for me and a fantasy
Be blind to myself to idolise
The alternative to real world
Is just time for me and a fantasy
I’m blind to myself to idolise
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Here am I
The divided self
My head spinning like a carousel
The world outside may still be beautiful
But I love this cell
Come over
You are still sane
I could give you just a little brawn if you give me a little brains
It’s a mess in here, I’ve been drinking
Myself blind again
My legs are numb, I just can’t get up
Will you stay through the theatre
Of my self-pity, my lechery?
I’m waiting for your guiding light to bring me back
To the power and the glory
Send messages
Old suggestive shit
I know that it will catch me up, but I just can’t help it
There’s an emptiness in my core
It’s embarrassing
Reel me in
Yes I will confess
I’m numb and I don’t give a fuck ‘cause it’s all just surface
Why can’t you and I just let go
And take all the risks?
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Mercy – well I melt in the kiss by the words and the whispers you sing me
Mercy – I’m frail in the kill by submission and will that you bring me
Mercy – when I’m nothing but ego you slap me to let go and sleep free
Now I sleep free
You’re my toybox and my memories
When I smell your skin you just make my whole world weep
I’m at your feet
Mercy – when the grey turns to black and the wave’s on my back you make me smile
Mercy – it’s the trauma and martyr you crush into pleasure and downtime
Mercy – it’s the shining of you that just breaks me in two like a lifeline
You’re my lifeline
I’m the idiot to your poetry
When you burn you bleach everything and all I need
Is at your feet
Mercy – are the licks and the lips of temptation just tricks not for playing?
Mercy – are you the camera suck gun slut to headphone fuck holes in my being?
Mercy – are you everything which put the sex into bitch or just faking?
Do you fake it?
So I celebrate your chemistry
If you bond with me, I could make your whole world sweet
I’m on my knees
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And if you’re hurting,
I will replace the noise with silence instead
Flushing out your head
If you like it violent
We can play rough and tumble, fall into bed
And I won’t breathe so you can recover
When you’re in pieces
Just follow the echo of my voice, it’s okay
Tune into that frequency
Don’t fight your reflex
Embrace the instict you can feel your way
Through the burden we face in the end
’cause it breaks my heart
That we live this way
I know people need love
But people never play the game
And we talk the talk
We communicate
But then people need love
And those people never play the game
Pleasure for pleasure
A tease is consequence enough for a fall
But I know you love to take the risk
The past is weakness
Don’t beg the question when the answer is war
There are moments when I’m overcome
’cause it breaks my heart
That we live this way
I know people need love
But people never play the game
And we talk the talk
We communicate
But then people need love
And those people never play the game
And it breaks my heart
People need love
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Made possible by the IAMX Patreon community, this live album was recorded during IAMX's 2019 Mile Deep Hollow Tour for use in the 2022 documentary by the same name. Experience the love and lust of an IAMX concert, the chaos of the crowd and the energetic and emotional sounds of Chris Corner and his live band: Janine Gezang (backing vox, keys, bass), Sammi Doll (backing vox, keys) & Jon Siren (drums). IAMX is joined by Liam Howe of Sneaker Pimps for two tracks on this album, which marked their first performance together in over a decade.
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Special thanks to:
Andini Ria, Anesthesia, Benjamin Acosta, Brittney Howell, IAMXTourCorner, Jim Zmuda, Janet Alia Chotia, K-Riboo In The Mountain, Little Mo, Minister Mandy Guerra, Outi Mäntylä, Pinky (Miss Lollirot), Sarah Anderson, Stephanie Goodner, Alistair Weddell, Ba Gonzalez, brassmunkie, Claudia Schröder, Erin Hiatt, Eric Calderon, Eric M. Calderon, Joe Clayson, Josefina Maria Jara, Julie Doubre, Leilani, Melissa Heeney, Paul A. James, Roger Kamp, Sib-Lo & Sioux Krause
released September 2, 2022
All music & lyrics by Chris Corner.
Performed live during the 2019 Mile Deep Hollow tour.
Chris Corner - Vocals, synths
Janine Gezang - Backing vocals, bass, synths
Sammi Doll - Backing vocals, synths
Jon Siren - Drums
Liam Howe - Synths on tracks 7 & 11
The recording and production of this album and the documentary the songs were recorded for, were made possible entirely and solely by contributions from IAMX patrons.
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